Thanks Be To God.

Wow! It's 2015. It has been a year of ups and downs. Like Mountain Top highs and very low vallies. I like to get real. But on the flipside,  I'm not throwing all of the dirty laundry out and going into details about the vallies. 
So with that being said I'm feeling beyond blessed. It is a crazy season of life right now. I have mentioned before that a few years back I suffered a miscarriage and battled postpartum following. I also mentioned postpartum hit again after precious Ben was born. He's 16 months old now! I immediately took action again when it hit. Prozac works wonders.
I recently decided to come off it after 16 months. I feel great.  Thanks be to God!
I think some of the vallies may have been contributed to the Prozac. I learned some very important lessons in those vallies.
1) Marriage is 100%/100%. Not 50/50.
2) Speak up even if it is hard.
3) Marriage is sacred and you don't play around.
4) God's grace is amazing.
5) God's plans are amazing.
6) Homeschool is hard but worth it.
7) If you mess up your gym routine' gains become loss!
Do you want me to keep going on with my lessons learned this past year? Hahaha.
I know everyone has a choice of path A or path B to choose. Satan knows this too. God knows which path we will choose. He allows us to make our own choices. He also allows us to speak up and ask for forgiveness. And by the grace of God alone, though often times I'm not even sure WHY, He grants us grace and forgiveness! ! Can I get an AMEN!!
Another lesson learned is we have to forgive too. Not just others but OURSELVES! ! That's a tough one, right?! God doesn't really like it when we question Him. If He thinks we are worthy of His forgiveness then why do we still hold on and not forgive ourselves? Human nature?  Satan? Both? We make mistakes. We sin.it has been that way from the first bite of the apple. I have learned to 🎶 let it go!🎶 I HAVE to forgive myself when I sin and screw up. If God thinks I'm worthy of it then who am I to second guess Him?
So Mountain Top moments. God's grace, glory, love, plan, forgiveness....I can keep going! I adore seeing His hand at work! There is no such thing as a coincidence. 
Another Mountain Top moment, realizing that I am string enough. I am enough. I am doing what God has called me to. I have learned that I am not just a homemaker. A homemaker is a HUGE responsibility. Proverbs shows us that. We just have to believe it! I am not going to apologize for who I am. I am who I am. I am who God made as He made me! Self acceptance is an amazing thing. No 2 snowflakes are the same. It is the same with people! Thank goodness there is not another me! Not sure if the world could tolerate 2 of me! 2 thumb your nose at the norm, OCD,  quirky,  ADHD of me! 😨 Scary!
So here's to 2015! May it be the best one yet!

Just Call Me Dori. (From Nemo)

"I'm going to start blogging more and blah blah blah." Yeah. That was months ago. Homeschooling started. Ben started crawling. Then climbing. Then walking. Then running and climbing higher. And I somehow ended up coaching 8-11 year old soccer. And tomorrow is Halloween. Needless to say, it has been chaos.

Things are going really good though. I reached my first RX on a Crossfit WOD and hit a couple of PR's. Yeah!!! Then sleep started winning out. Then a month past. And I am practically starting over again. Everyone knows how that goes. So I am pumped and ready to go again. Then I will get crazy busy with Thanksgiving and Christmas......we all know this story! 

So needless to say, life has been happening. I am thrilled with this crazed season in my life though. It has been a roller coaster ride the past few years. I could really get real and deep but this isn't the post for that. I have a story to tell. One most people can relate to. But God will let me know when that time is right. He will put it on my heart to tell because He will know that someone needs it at that time. 

Right now God is telling me to just keep swimming. It is okay to stop and tread water. It is okay and normal to feel like the water is getting over my head. There will be times I am in the shallows and I can splash and play and not have to worry about swimming. Then there are times I am swimming in a riptide and He has to remind me to relax and let Him do the work. And most importantly, don't fight the current! He has a plan! 

So mommas, or dads, or grandparents, or whoever, we are not going to sink! Tides shift and seasons change. Enjoy where you are and if you can't, it shall pass. 

All in all, the main point I was trying to make was, look, squirrel! ADD kicks in And I can't remember the main topic I was planning on writting about in the first place! Maybe that is just tired momma brain letting me know I need a beer and pointless tv for a bit. 

Bucket List

I said I didn't have a bucket list. But once I started thinking about it, I realized I did. Stuff I wanted to do before I even net my husband. Then we got married and 10 months later Carson was born. It's been a roller coaster since then.

Here is a good start. The main thing that I had wanted to do over the past 2 years was start doing Crossfit. Well I have. So that was checked off. Then I realized I really needed to get back into teaching group fitness again. And I love yoga. I may look into getting certified. 

Then it got deeper. What did I enjoy prior children? Scuba diving was one thing. We'll see about that one. Hiking part of the Appliachian Trail was something I REALLY wanted to do. Starting a bit smaller though considering 3 children come into the factor now. But I WILL not put this in the back of my mind again!

I want to do a half marathon. I also want to learn to wakeboard and surf. 2 things I dreamt about for years. The fun catch now, my 8 year old will get to learn alongside if me! 

I am also looking forward to fall soccer season. Bella wants to play and wants me to coach! I haven't coached since the season before I got pregnant with Ben. I'm really looking forward to it. 

God has only blessed us with 1 life to live. I'm not going to sit back anymore and wait. Gonna gasp it each day because we are not promised tomorrow. I also feel now that it is a sin to sit back and waste what He has in store! So God bless and Carpe Deim! 

A Little Bit Of Inspiration.

You Just Gotta Keep L-I-V-I-N.

L-I-V-I-N. Summed up in one "word" in the classic Dazed and Confused. Maybe I should start by back tracking and introducing myself. I'm ME! It took me 32 good years to really figure out who ME is! Or if you want you want proper English, since I do homeschool and that may make some folks even more unsure if I am qualified to teach my own children. 

"It took me 32 good years to figure out who "I" am." Better?

I am a Christian. Though not a very good one at times. Praise God for His Grace. 

I am a wife. Though not a very good one at time. Praise God for Grace that my husband extends.

I am a mother. Though not a very good one at times. Praise Gpd for Grace my children extend. See a pattern? It is called being HUMAN! Yeah folks, that's life. We are not perfect. Though that tidbit may come as a shocker to some. Bless their heart. 😁

I have another blog. Some of you follow it. Some of you (many) (oh well) don't. Doesn't phase me. It is still my outlet to vent and be real. And I plan on doing so even more so in this blog. So come along for the ride if you want! 

Dang. I already veered off and I can't remember the title post and where I was planning on heading. That happens. A lot. You'll get use to it.

So I introduced ME a bit. I won't give it all away. But join me in life. Real life. Struggles in marriage. My journey into the world of Crossfit. A battle with postpartum depression. Miscarriage.Insecurities. Crunchy living. Raising 3 children. Trying to find myself. L-I-V-I-N life. Hold on cause it's a bumpy road!